[vickie h]

Jackie, I know those feelings of lonliness and sadness and they can be debilitating. I have friends around me , family, and the best husband I could ever dream of having, yet there are times that lonliness takes over. It is a different kind that skulks and shadows the background of our lives., I believe it is an accumulation of all that we have been through. Some feel that being NED or "cancer free" is the goal, when it is also our mental well being, spiritual awakenings and being in touch with our feelings that matter the most. Without these, we are just a body without organic disease, but without the others we are lost and alone. This journey has taken us to uncharted waters, murky and unknown to all of us ,and time and love and understanding seem to be the awakening we really seek. God has always been there with you and he will continue to lead you up paths filled with learning and committment. The journry never ends, but the joy awaiting you is right inside your own heart and soul. Ant mate would be thrilled to find you, and find you they will. Keep walking ahead and don't look back...you are on the chosen path. Love, Vickie