[Sheila]

Just hoping someone out there can give me some suggestions or hope...I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Today completes my 4th round of Antibiotics, 5th bottle of cough medicine with codiene. I have been sick since the day after Thanksgiving, I missed going to San Antonio as I was diagnosed with viral pneumonia the day before. Almost 1 month later, i am no better, have been to the emergency room for more bloodwork, blood cultures, and xrays, missed my last chemo and will be unable to get the one tomorrow (no Taxol, just Herceptin) as i am still so sick. I have lost 10# (I needed that) and have no appetite. Today I felt like the movie Rudolph when i called my children and parents and "cancelled" Christmas (Dinner) which was to be at my house. I havcen't been out of the house except for Dr's visits for a month ( so that tells you how much Christmas shopping I've done!). The other good side (besides losing weight, is that my blood pressure has gotten so low, I have been able to go off the Avastin induced high Blood Pressure Meds! )

I am really getting down about this, tired of coughing, tired of fatigue....just wondering when it will end...I was so upset about missing San Antonio, but now Christmas....ughhhhhhhhhhh....and not to mention missing my chemo for over a month.... I need to recover and soon! This is getting the best of me.