[norwegian]

Debra,-
Oh,- I so much agree with you!!
Like you, I'm so tired of being scared...

All my friends and family are very happy for me - they all think I'm cancer free-( because I look well they say..) and because I see my onc every 4 months. This is very comforting to them.
And who can blame them?

But really,- what does my onc do to me when I see him? Well, he feels my scar, and touches my armpit, and my throat. He tells me to do a mammographi. And then - he tells me that I'm well now. See you in january.

My family asks; what did he say?
I answer; He said I'm well, no evidence of disease.
My friends say: You must be so happy now!!!
I say: Yes, of course, I'm very happy....

But honestly (and this make me a little ashamed) I'm not very happy.

Because I wonder- how can my onc say I'm NED????

I hate cancer.



I hate cancer.