[Joy]

This crap s*cks of course you can cry. Cry anywhere you please! I have cried in the cancer center more times than I can count. When I got my last blood work results with elevated Alk and one liver enzyme a little funky, I cried so hard that the nurse had to go get the doctor again (I'd just seen her and it was her birthday) to come talk down the jumper. Meanwhile we were having tornados in the area and a tornadao warning and a city imposed lock down and could not leave the building. The had put all the infusion patients in the hallways away from windows and there I was sitting and balling, I mean sobbing, right next to the windows. They had to move me to a private room all by myself 'cause I was such a mess. Everyone thought I was worried about the weather, which I was somewhat oblivious to and we were having TORNADOS!

Anyway, cry and yell and keep making us laugh, cause you are freakin' hilarious despite it all. Your body is tough and you have time to get the levels down and continue. I will pray to the laboratory Gods for good bloodwork as hard as I can. And I had two miniature Dove/vanilla ice cream bars last night and even though I rarely eat sweet things-they were just what I needed. Now I realize they were just what we all needed. Isn't is great when you find out how altruistic you can be and not even know it at the time

I LOVE YOU!