[MJo]

You are not whining. As someone told me when I wrote a post similar to yours -- you are perfectly normal. "Someday I feel I can live until I'm 80 and some day I'm not so sure" -- that brought tears to my eyes, you said it so well. I am not surprised you are getting more nervous as your MRI approaches. I think all of us here start to feel queazy when routine tests like mammograms and MRIs get closer. Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, maybe. Yes, two years out is good. Next year, three years out will be better -- and so on and so on. What are the chances of it spreading to your lungs since your last xray -- I don't know the statistics, but probably your changes are as good or bad as any of us here, which is why most of us are nervous before tests. But you have lots of support here -- keep posting -- and come back and let us celebrate with you when your tests are all clear.