[MJo]

I was also stage 1. I didn't take THC but I took AC. I felt like I was having what is called a nervous breakdown. Like you, I felt I couldn't control my thoughts -- that something else was controlling them. I've done some volunteer work with psychiatric patients, and I think I understand a bit more now how awful brain disorders are. A few weeks after I finished AC I was back to normal (my normal that is) and it was a blessed relief. Before BC I wouldn't even take aspririn. THe Onc prescribed Lexapro and Xanax. I took the Lexapro but tried not to take much xanax. If I had to do it over again (and I trust I never will) I would take the Xanax. It's the chemicals, not you. I remember my family looked scared (I don't have husband or kids--I mean brothers and sisters in law). I must have been a mess. Fortunately, I didn't have any mouth trouble. I rinsed my mouth a couple of times a day with baking soda. Someone told me not to think too much about BC or I'd go crazy. I told them I'd already had a breakdown during AC and I'd come through it, so I wasn't worried. If you are not getting nauseaus, feverish etc., that's good. Take one more treatment and then take the last one if you can. One THC at a time. You'll make it.