Nicola,
I have no advice, just lots of loving support to offer. I do know what you mean about having a supportive family, but not being able to let go and show your fear and frustration. We worry about our families and do not want them to have to experience our fear. I really don't think those who have not experienced cancer can know the quagmire of our emotions. Having the people on this site to share with and seek support from is truly a blessing.
Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and keep us updated.
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