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Old 06-28-2007, 07:59 AM   #9
Andrea Barnett Budin
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Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW...
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Wink Feelings Impact Our Thoughts & Vice Versa

I believe it our thoughts that evoke our emotions. I feel like a victim, an invalid, vulnerable, sad, frightened, concerned, unsure -- when I am thinking thoughts that are full of poor me's. I feel like a Survivor, a proud Warrior, an activist, on the road to being triumphant -- when the dialogue in my head goes something like, ISN'T LIFE GRAND, LOOK AT THOSE TREES, THOSE AMAZING SEA CREATURES, HOW DARLING MY GRANDKIDS ARE. A sense of joy and harmony then come into play. Feelings of love transform our day. Make us smile. And laugh more easily. See the humor and the delight of being of alive. Chemicals are induced to surge throughout our bodies as a result of our thoughts and mental images. And we truly feel better. We are mixing the ingredients of wellness and good health. Our immune system becomes improved and strengthened by such positive emotions, which are totally tied to our thinking process. It is all connected -- mind and body. And Soul, which is the most precious part of who you are. Sending much loving energy to all my sweet Soul Sisters, as always... ANDI
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'95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive...

'98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!)
+ good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either...

Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...
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