[Sherryg683]

OK, I'm going to be the wet noodle here. I do not in any way believe that cancer has been a "blessing" to me. And honestly say that it is hard for me to find one positive thing about it. This saying, I was diagnosed at stage IV. Maybe if I was diagnosed at stage I and felt there was a cure, I would be a little more positive. I have young children and it hurts like crazy knowing what the prognosis is...so sorry if I'm not doing a happy dance lately. But I have not given up on life or living. I do travel more, take more time to spend with my kids and do appreciate the beauty of nature. There's just always this sadness in me that I can't seem to shake. I will fight this with all I have, I have just had too many people that I love and care for die of cancer, so I know what i'm facing. My brother is in the last stages of melanoma at the moment, it's in his liver. He was a big strong guy, who was a body builder..now he's just weak and half his self. It's just been a hard year for me and hopefully I can shake what I've been feeling lately so that I can enjoy things more...sherryg683