Cognitive - Is anyone experiencing this
 

I finished chemo in May 2006 and Herceptin in November 2006, so I'm two years past chemo and 1 1/2 years past Herceptin. I write for a living -- business writing, grant proposals, reports, etc. I don't write as fast or think as fast as I used to. I don't focus/concentrate as well either. I used to be a "turn-around" writer, able to get a document out fast. That's very hard for me today. I suspect it's a side effect of chemo; however, I've also changed my attitude about work in general. Life is too important to stress myself. Has anyone experienced this? I am going to discuss it with my oncologist. I actually wonder if I should try Ritalin. I am not performing on the job the way I used to. My boss is supportive, but I m worried. Wondering if i should switch to something that doesn't require writing. I'm only 57 and used to love my work enough that I never wanted to retire. I feel differently now and would stop if I could (but I can't). Don't know if I have cognitive damage or if it's my new philosophy or both.

There is currently research on cognitive failure (Chemobrain)

http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/557676

Regards
Joe

MJo, I know I as well have problems with this. I have used sticky notes but now I find I have to use them almost daily to remember things, because if I don't write it down, I won't remember.

I also find that things I used to do, I now find myself thinking how did I do that task before. I forget things very quickly.

That's interesting. I am on an AI only....no chemo, no Herceptin. I have noticed that I don't focus, and my memory sort of "shorts out" sometimes. I, too, have been told it's my age. Maybe my age is contributing SOME, but I don't think all.

Thanks, Femara!

Jennifer

Another thought
 

I am 2 years past chemo. I work at a University and a large part of my work is writing. Before diagnosis, like you I never wanted to retire...then I experienced exactly what you have...had the same thoughts, probably from chemo etc. Talking to my regular doctor, he suggested I might have depression...I started on a low dose antidepressant and it was a miracle. I could think, I could concentrate, I could work! I didn't feel depressed and I would have never thought that was the problem...but it worked for me.

Peggy

I use sticky notes and then forget the sticky notes! And spelling, I can't believe some of the words I cannot spell. It's been almost 2 years since i finished herceptin.

I agree. I think maybe we suffer from a sort of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. As someone who has experienced several recurrences I find it gets worsw. At present, I am trying to deal with Social Security and need to be on the ball about what I have earnt and when. Very difficult when you have chemo brain.

Hi Mary Jo,

I forget a lot too, but I think it's age related. It doesn't seem to be so bad that I think it's damage from chemo.

I always have a lot of post-it notes.

Sometimes I think that having a lot on our plates causes stress which can interfere with our concentration and promote forgetfulness.

Joan

THank you all. I never thought about the Arimidex, even though I take the little pill every night. Especially since Jennifer is noticing these symtoms on AI only. Interesting comment about the antidepressant, because I had to cut my dose down -- w/ doctor's approval. It made me sleepy, especially when I lost a lot of the treatment weight. I feel comforted by these comments and will go easier on myself. Regards to all

I have always thought the "finding the right word" syndrome was low estrogen. Even the hormone negative women get chemopause and us hormone positive women might get it worse because of AIs. I knew it was that as I am well done with Herceptin but sometimes forget how to spell the word "was" (this happened recently). But, overall, my memory is good. My motivation for work is good. Perhaps the work I do is becoming less than inspiring but...

Hello Ladies, I'm sorry to chime in here, but I had to. For what it's worth, I've never had chemo., and I've always been complimented on my excellent memory. I don't have a photographic memory, about 90%, and throughout my life, was always the source for spelling and definitions of words, but within the last six months, I find myself hesitating, sometimes not able to find the right word I want to say, and sometimes the person I'm speaking with will provide the word, and I'll say, "yeah, that's it" and it will be some really common word. I guess what I'm saying is that "our" memory and recall problems may be fundamentally related to stress. Chemotherapy causes stress, and I gotta feeling I've always had low estrogen. Just thought I'd put in my two cents worth.

Time for my 2 cents worth.....................although I don't seem to have any real memory problems (however me and post it notes are real close friends http://www.her2support.org/vbulletin...cons/icon7.gif) my attitude toward's work and it's meaning to me have changed.

I always loved my job and still do HOWEVER I've found since breast cancer entered my life I am way busier with other things and sometimes work seems to "get in the way" of what I'd like to be doing. I think it's about finding what's really important in life. You agree?http://www.her2support.org/vbulletin...cons/icon7.gif

That being said, I will say, my kitchen at work has become somewhat of a "conference" room and different staff members will come in all the time to talk - to ask me to pray - to ask about someone they know who was dx with breast cancer and many other things. So, it feels like my purpose somewhat also.

That's my 2 cents for what it's worth..........probably only like 2 cents.http://www.her2support.org/vbulletin...cons/icon7.gif

Love you guys,

Mary Jo

THanks MareJo. I was telling my co-worker that all I want to do is run through a field of flowers. That's what I want for my life. That is my ambition since breast cancer. I am no longer afraid of the word "unproductive." I want to watch seeds pop through the garden soil.

I am writing this on my lunch hour.

Duh, what was I doing??
 

Good topic and I know it has been discussed earlier in these pages.

Have any of you tried any of the "memory enhancement" supplements?
My cancer is hormone neg and I was already post meno at dx, and seemed to be coping ok with memory till my diagnosis.

After having TWO long rounds of hard chemo in successive years, I really noticed my ability to carry on with things drop after the second go round. The "Zombie syndrome" was more apparent and a lot less got done.
I did get a short course of Ritalin from my med onc during my radiation as my ability to focus and finish a task was very scattered then.

After all the drugs for mets I began taking Lions Mane Mushroom capsules and did notice an improvement.
Then I found another one called "Neurozyme" by New Chapter. For "Supercritical Mental Clarity." It does have Ginko along with many other good things.
One thing I like about it is that it "reduces cortisol," a stress hormone that makes us hold the spare tire fat.

Last year I had to keep a lot of new and technical information on my Dad's medical condition in my head to explain to far off family members. Two years prior I could not have done that!

P.S. Since my Gamma knife and other work on my head for the brain mets, I also felt the need to somehow add something to the CoQ 10 for my brain health.

Steph - Thank you for reminding me about natural supplements. It came at the right time. After complaining last week to this board and some other survivors I know, I decided I must accept my (hopefully temporary) cognitive problems and try to accommodate them. I plan to ask my boss if I can move to an office in a less busy location so I have fewer distractions. Thanks to your reminder, I will also visit my health food store this weekend to look at some supplements. I have to be careful that none of them raise estrogen levels, since I'm ER/PR pos.

Happy supplement shopping MJO.
Recognizing and accepting these memory problems allows us to go to the NEXT step and try to make it better.

It is scary at first when we realize how impaired we are feeling, and many of us try to hide the condition. When work product or home making suffers, others are going to notice.

As Debbie says, better to be open about the issue. It goes with the territory called BC, as well as the dropping hormone levels and general slowing down with age.

I had to thank my hubby this morning for reminding me of something, when it is usually Me reminding HIM!

Mjo,
an Onc I saw I Florida back in 2005 (when I was evacuated for Katrina), prescribed Provigil for me. I felt that it gave me little more focus, but was afraid of the risk of raising my bp, so I quit taking it...Just a thought,,,
Marcia

memory deficits
 

Hi mjo,

I was the spelling bee champ prior to chemo, but at 7 years out the spellings come and go when I least expect it -- so those people in my life who knew I could spell almost anything have almost as hard a time with it as I do when I freeze up and stumble over spelling off the cuff -- and even just remembering which word it is I am trying to say.

I've had several different occupations over the years so making changes was just one more for me.

I think it is caused both by stress and by loss of estrogen. I don't take an AI, but tamoxifen was similar for me. And I do think the low levels of our CBC's during chemo reduce the total volume of oxygen available to the brain during some periods of treatment, perhaps even because the CBC's themselves may be less mature or less of them may be mature enough to carry a full load.... (leaving us missing a few cards from the deck).

I thought about what DLaxague said about being able to continue on autopilot after years of doing the work, and there is some truth in that too, but I have also found that even when doing the most routine tasks I can suddenly realize that I don't know what step is next, and that IS frightening.

The last visit I had with my PCP I was describing the issue of testosterone and completely lost the word I needed to explain (which was "converting" to estrogen). Since he is a good doctor he observed the deficit and waited rather than supplying the word for me and there was quite a pause while I struggled, before he suggested it. But I know he was aware of the problem.

You are not alone in experiencing these things.

AlaskaAngel