Caryn is an angel now
 

After a long and courageous battle Caryn passed away yesterday. She was the best friend I've ever had, the love of my life and an amazing mother to my children. My hope was that she would be around long enough to benefit from the "miracle" drug that would help us avoid this day until she reached a ripe old age. Unfortunately, it did not happen but I believe that the day of radically changing this fight is not far off. I could not have gotten through all of this without hope and YOU!!!!. You and this site were an incredible blessing. You provide love, compassion, support and amazing strength. What an amazing group of people. I will be eternally grateful. I will continue to pray for all of you and I want to continue to watch and post as much as I can while I take care of my children. Please know that you made an amazing impact on me. During a time of my life when I felt incredibly scared and helpless you helped me feel less so. I can never thank you enough. God Bless each and all of you.
Eric

Eric,
My heart is breaking. I am so sorry. Please know you and your children will continue to be surrounded in prayers.

You and Caryn are our heroes. We will never forget how Caryn fought this terrible dragon and in doing that has helped many others. You have been by her side every step of the way. Your devotion to your best friend, the love of your life and mother of your children has made an huge impact on our lives that we will never forget.

We now have another angel watching over us.
Donna

Eric my sincere sympathy to you and your children. I am so sorry Caryn's life was cut so short by this terrible disease. A terrible loss for you all - for us all. I wish you all strength, courage and peace as you continue on; and I hope through your tears and grief you'll feel Caryn's presence and love surrounding you.

Eric,
You were a devoted husband. You have not only supported Caryn but everyone on this site. Please find comfort in knowing that you did everything you could do to your wife. I am praying for you and the kids
Kim

Dear Eric,

Sincere and heartfelt compassion I feel for you and your children today. I'm sorry for your loss.

We are here for you. May God's peace surround you and your children and may you be comforted in your grief.

Love and prayers surround you.

Mary Jo

Eric
Please know you and your children are in our hearts and prayers at this difficult time....you were such a rock for Caryn and your children....you shared the deep love and caring for her to the very end....what a role model.
Please continue to let us now how you and the children are doing...you have helped so many of us on your own personal journey, and your presence on this board is needed.

Eric my heart is just breaking right now for you and your children. What a courageous battle Caryn fought.

Your love for Caryn was shown so much for thru your post's.

May God wrap his arms around you and your children during this most difficult time.

My heart is with you and your children. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Just we are all here for you and your children.

Eric,
I am so sorry to hear of Caryn's passing. I hope that you and the kids can take comfort that Caryn is now an Angel and will continue to surround you with love.

You and Caryn are such an inspiration and example for us all on the site and we have all benefited greatly by your outpouring of love and generosity.

I am praying for continued strength, peace and confidence in your comittment to emotionally support your children and family.

You are an amazing person!!!

Love....Lori

Oh, Eric, I'm so, so sorry about Caryn's going way too early. It feels like so little to only pray for you and your family, but I do send my prayers and love. What a blessing you and Caryn have been to us. ma

sad to hear your news
 

Dear Eric
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jackie (down under)

Eric,

Please know that I will keep you, your children, and your entire family in my thoughts and prayers. You and Caryn have fought the good fight; she will remain with you all in your hearts.

Eric, you were Caryn's world through all of this. I honor you for that. God bless you and the children.

Eric,

I have no words. You and your children are in my thoughts.

Hopeful

Eric,

I am so sorry to hear of your beloved Caryn's passing. She certainly was a true warrior, with you her stalwart supporter by her side.
I send my love and prayers to you, your children and Caryn's extended family.

all the best
caya

Caryn
 

Eric, I am praying for all of you, Caryn fought the good fight with grace and dignity. May she be at peace in the arms of the Lord. , Jeanette

Dear Eric, this is such sad news, my heart goes out to you and your family. May strength and comfort be with you always.

Diane

We hate this damned disease. It has taken so many good people.

Our most heartfelt condolences for both you and your children. They will need you now more than ever.

Hugs, Love and Light
Christine and Joe

Eric,

I am so very sorry to hear about Caryn. From everything you posted about her, her strength and grace amzed me. You had written so many times that she never complained and fought as hard as she could and now I pray that she will rest in peace.

I am praying for you and your children.

hugs,
shoha

Eric, I am so very sorry to hear of Caryn's passing. Both of you were very brave in your fight. You were there for each other. I send my prayers and condolences to you and your children. I know it is a difficult time for you, but you must be strong for them. God bless you.

Sweet Eric and Family, my heart simply breaks for you and your loss of this rather incredible woman. We have been so blessed to have her in our lives for what short time we shared together. I write knowing that mere words cannot take your pain away, but with the knowledge that our Angel Caryn no longer feels pain, she is free from all fear, the personal battle over. Caryn embraces comfort and peace and her fight was never lost; the cancer got bigger than her. Her valiant battle against this monster was heroic and that of a total Warrior.

Eric, as I face the same fate with my husband I can only say that I hope I can be as brave and have as much unselfish grace as you. Your love for her shined through without a doubt and you have made me proud of knowing you, you are quite a special person too. I will paste Caryn's name on my 'In Rememberance' shirt and wear it proudly as her memory shall burn bright for me during my lifetime. Caryn shall live on through the people whom loved her forever. May you be comforted during this hardship of grief and know that continued prayers for your family will be encompassed through each of my days. I am so sorry Eric.>>Peace.....Marie & Ed

Eric,

My heart is breaking for you and the children. You can be very proud of the way that you and Caryn fought this.
I pray that God comforts you during this difficult time.

Tonya

Eric
My heart goes out to you and your children. I echo Joe and Christine that this damn disease has robbed too many families of their wives, partners and mothers.
You both fought so hard and with tremendous courage and grace.
You and your children are in my prayers and your lovely wife at peace.
Love Ellie

I am so sorry Eric. You are such a wonderful husband. Heartbreaking. Wishing you and the kids peace and stength.

Dear Eric,

Caryn is in a place where there is no more pain and suffering. She was a brave and courageous lady and with such a loving family, i am sure she was really blessed,
We must celebrate her life and i am sure she would like to see you all happy. So please take courage and thank God for all the wonderful things she brought into your life.

Dear Eric,

I am so sorry. Please know that Caryn was inspirational to all of us. What a terrific husband and friend you were to her. I pray that you and your children will somehow be able to find comfort during this very sad time.

Hugs and Prayers,
Lexi

Eric...
 

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers and with you and your family. Take care and God bless.

I send my deepest sympathy.

Barb A.

Dear Eric, I have tears in my eyes and an ache in my heart as I tell you how sorry I am. May God hold you, your children, and family and friends close. Sincerely, Ceesun

Eric,

I cannot pretend to know your anguish right now. You both fought so hard. Hugs for those beautiful children that you and Caryn so lovingly created. She lives on through them.

My sincere sympathy
 

to you, your children, and Caryn's family. I know how it feels to lose a spouse and it's indescribable. It is the most intimate relationship you can have with another person and it feels very raw. There's a vulnerability component to it because no one knows you quite like Caryn did. The blessing of your marriage to Caryn is the children you have. It's hard to see your children mourn, when you're hurting too. You could not have done more for Caryn than you did. You were amazing!

My heart goes out to you and your children. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Caryn is at peace now with our Creator. God Bless you and your children.
Love,
Gemma

For Eric:

Praying God will comfort you as you grieve the loss of your special angel, Caryn. At a time when words fall short, may God answer each prayer spoken for you with strength of heart, peace of mind, and comfort in the midst of your sorrow.

For your children:

You were such a special part of your mom's life, and she was so proud of you. Remember always that you brought much joy to her life. May God help you when you are feeling sad, and remind you of just how much you will always be loved.

My sympathy and prayers to all of you, and to your extended family.

Alice

Eric,
Someday God will see fit to help us understand why these tragedies must occur. In the meantime you and the children are in my prayers.
Love & hugs,
Marlys

I am so sorry, for her, for you and for your children, that she didn't get more time to wait for the "wonder drug".

I hope you will be supporting your children the way you have Caryn. And that you will find the support you need to get through this terrible loss.

My heart goes out to all of you. And to all of us, for we will miss Caryn too. She is one of us. She allways will be.

Hugs

Jacqueline

Honor
 

You and your family seem to have faced your challenges with honor. You were always positive, and were very admirable with your ability to avoid the natural responses of anger and resentment, and you helped her make the journey to the other side with love and confidence, hope and generosity on her side. Her spirit must be at peace knowing there is so much love for her. We will all miss her, and we're all here for you to share any feelings you want to share. The doctors and scientists who are searching for those new discoveries are learning from people like her. She made a big impact on the world in many ways.

Today I wear black and my HER2support pin for her.

Bless you and your children Eric, Love Celeste

Dear Eric -
You know how we rally our energy around those in need on this board. In the past you have been one of those sending sympathy and love. Now receive our heartfelt support for strength in the coming days and weeks.

We know you did everything humanly possible to keep Caryn in the fight. Thank you for the expression of appreciation for Joe, Chris and this site.

The ache in my heart is a mix of feelings - all of which have been expressed above.

Eric,

You are an amazing spouse. I am sorry for Caryn's passing and I hope and pray that you and the children will be consoled by the beautiful memory she had left with you.

Joe and Christine had expressed what we really felt at heart. I am glad to know that you will continue to help us out on the board.

Our deepest sympathy to you and your family.

Oh Eric, my heart is broken in pieces for you and your children. I am so sorry. We love you and Caryn deeply. Thank you for sharing her with us. You both fought so valiantly and courageously. She was lucky (and very proud I suspect) to have you fighting for her and looking out for her. God has a beautiful new angel who will be looking out for you and your children now. Deepest love and prayers to you at this time.

Eric, I am so heartbroken to hear this news. We have all had Caryn on our minds and have been praying constantly.
You were so fantastic, she was blessed to have you at her side.
May God bless you and your children.

Eric,
I'm not even going to read anyone's response here, I expect I will say much the same thing.

I am so saddened by this news, and wrap you and your family in loving prayers.

I think Caryn was always an angel, she has just moved on - whole and complete in God's embrace.

You are also an angel. I've learned and gained so much strength from you and Caryn's example. Caryn fought so hard, with you beside her. I can't imagine what you are going through - although I do imagine it all the time just with different faces (my family's faces).

What I would hope for myself and my family (aside from, as you called, radical changes in the fight) is that they would stand with me, fight for me and love me with even half the grace and passion that you have held in your fight.

I would hope to be as courageous and determined as Caryn was. I would hope that my husband, sister and niece would never feel they failed, would never let themselves be without love, and would find sunshine and joy again soon. And that they would know I would never leave them, I would always be as close as a memory and if they ever needed my advice, they could just ask "what would aunt chris say?" then listen to their hearts.

With much sorrow and love,
Chris