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[rhondat123]

hi 34 idc invasive 1.7cm exbiopsy lumpectomy sept29 2006 clearmargins 2 nodes removed but clear her2 and had a vessel near it with cells but not sure if any invasion markers good ct csan good bone scan showed a spot on rib under bc breast but doc says he thinks its arhtritus but has orderd mri to rule out very scared about that surely if he thought it was mets he would say so and he said no sign of cancer echo great start ac every 3 weeks for 3 mths and taxol and herceptin weekly for 3mths and herceptin to finish out a year get port and first treatment on nov1 scared i will be deathly sick i watched new lifetime movie tonite it sure didnt help my feelings what does my situation sound like is this too much after treatments and then rads and tamox for five years i would rather have hysterectomy i am already fixed i have 2 kids my nerves are gone i work for the postal service been there 8 years waiting for full time and now im next to get it and they can replace me if they want because i have no benefits yet wow that would be a waist but i guess bc doesnt pick covenient times it sure has changed my thinking i hope ill be okay and chemo wont be as horrible as i imagine it has always been my biggest fear i associate it with death i guess its toxic and i feel fine and have never been sick a day in my life really and now i dont know what to expect after nov1 scared of the lympnode thing too being a mail carrier how long will that be an issue the doc tells me how lucky i am and my prognosis is great will grow old and look back on this as a lifeexperience i have never been one to take great care of myself always thought it wouldnt happen to me i put smokes down the day they told me quit cold turkey and had smoked alot for 14 years maybe ending up saving my life i know all the material things i always dwelled on dont even come to mind anymore and my marriage has strengthend so far i guess good comes with the bad huh sorry for dwelling just scared and need reassuring i guess glad to read all your post they help also there is a rhonda bowen on here i was rhonda bowen twice with my first husband and its now my middle name thats a trip haha pls respond

[tousled1]

Rhonda,

So sorry to hear your diagnosis. Your doctor is right -- you have a great prognosis. You had clear margins and no lymph node involvement. I know how devastating it is when you hear the words you have breast cancer. We have all gone through that and once your mind accepts that you can move on. Chemo is not so bad -- nothing like it was years ago and with all the pre-meds you get you'll do fine. I went through A/C and Taxatare and was not sick at all -- tired yes but not sick. This board is a wonderful place to come and get support and information. All the women here have been where you are now so don't hesitate to ask questions or just vent. Having breast cancer sort of gives you a different perspective on life -- learn not to sweat the small stuff.