Frightened again

[dawn]

Hi,

Im finished my chemo for about a month now. I've been to see my oncs. Everything is looking good. I go on Wednesday to set up for my rads. I'll have to get 25. Wednesday I also begin talking tamoxifen and after rads I begin Herceptin. But this week has been so hard. My 5 year old son has started school and I just cant help wondering what the future holds and how much of it I will be involved in. I've been trying to shake it for a couple of days but I just cant get rid of that feeling. Is this normal, will it pass?
The other thing thats happening, my fingers and lower arms are numb in the morning with pins and needles. It takes awhile for them to wake up and return to normal. I keep thinking there's something wrong, maybe I should just go and get it checked. IF I cough, I think here we go, is there any suggestions on how to get rid of these thoughts and try to have some kind of normalacy or is that asking for too much. Any thoughts or suggestions would be great.

Dawn

[tousled1]

Dawn,

We all feel very vunerable and wonder what the future holds for us. It's probably the hardest thing to do - not look ahead and wonder. I can't tell you what to do but I try, and that's exactly what I mean try, to just keep focused on the now. As for the tingling/numbness -- I had the same thing when I was on Taxatore. Sorry to say that I still have the tingling/numbness.

[Cathya]

Dawn;

I remember so many times feeling just as you do....more earlier on than now so it seems we get used to our new lives. When I went for my last herceptin treatment I was put in the same chair (near the door) as I had during my very first chemo treatment. I remember how very difficult it was for me to just go through the door the first time but now I am very relaxed and unaffected by it all. Whenever I felt the way you do right now I had a friend I met at one of the support groups who I would call. She wasn't a close friend but somehow she was able to calm me down and get me re-focued on today. Perhaps you have someone like that....or perhaps we can do this for you. We don't know what the future holds but right now your tests are good so do try to relax and enjoy your life.

Cathy